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running faucet?

November 19, 2009

pag naiwang tumatakbo ang gripo, kung anu-ano ang lumalabas…

…thanks! frankly, wala pa rin akong nakikitang pamalit sa’yo. you always amaze me with how you look. kumbaga, ang bait bait ng mukha. hahaha! try as i may, mahirap makalapit sa mga taong katulad mo. medyo yan na rin yung rason kung bakit minsan ayaw kong sumama sa mga lakad niyong magkakaibigan (kahit pumupunta pa rin ako most of the time). though i know your problems, i can’t help, simply because i still can’t find the courage to say “need help?” sorry. i’ll muster up the courage to actually talk to you about something sensible for once. someday. and, no, my rants about my asthma problem last year probably won’t count, given the fact that i think you forgot they ever happened. if i’d turn out to be a pretty good friend, better! don’t worry, hindi ako marunong manligaw; i won’t be giving flowers anytime soon :) ) but i’ll seriously try to be a best friend. para kahit papano, nagkaroon man lang ako gn panibagong kaibigan bago matapos ang high school. look at it this way: i trust you, but you don’t trust me yet. not that much. you do, but not that much. you talk to me about stuff too, but somehow i don’t feel that it counts. baka naman ako lang yun; i’ll never know unless i actually try. o diba? :) ) thanks for the trust (both from me and you), and maybe i can tell you that i like you someday. asa namang magkikita tayo sa college. HAHAHA joke :) ):))

…so far, ikaw pa lang ang katangi-tanging tao na napakitaan ko ng tiwala. i didn’t talk to you before the way that i do now, and now look. we actually trust each other! it’s a great achievement on my part. maraming salamat sa pag-iintindi sa mga pakiramdam ko, kahit minsan medyo bata na ako. you have your friends, i have mine, but we still talk as if we were best friends. i really appreciate that. Godspeed! kaya mo yan! :) )

…sorry. hindi na ako nakakaopen up masyado. i find it so hard to say simple things that i need to say to people that i know i won’t be able to talk often with. ewan. baka ako lang naman yun. :) ) i’ll make up for it someday. this year would be better. idol ka kasi eh. ;) i’ll tell the rest if we get to talk. para astig. ^_^

 

…astig ka talaga! you can read my mind O_O  pakiramdam ko magkikita’t magkikita pa rin tayo pagkatapos ng graduation habang nagcocommute, just like the old times :) ) thanks for always being there. kahit di halata :) ) nakakatuwa, parang antagal-tagal na nating magkakilala. di ko matandaan kung matagal na nga o hindi, pero mukha naman. “half of my heart” pala ah! nababasa mo talaga ako no? :) )

…ranting. parang tubig na naiwang bukas lang.

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November 9, 2009
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someone to save you.

November 9, 2009

this song, my dear friend, is for you.

 

OneRepublic – Someone to Save You

 

Patience took you for everything
Looked like a diamond ring
You are so much longer
That made sense, apathy in disguise
Crept on you like a spy

Hurt you in ways you can’t describe

Back to the start now
I won’t let you go this way now

Honesty is what you need
It sets you free, like someone to save you

Let it go, but hurry now
There’s undertow, and I don’t want to lose you now

All right, sit down and spill your heart
Let’s start from the very start
‘Cause i can see by your eyes, you’re wasted
Your energy comes and goes
You taking your time, you know
Nothing can change what happened

So, back to the start now
I won’t let you go this way now

Honesty is what you need
It sets you free, like someone to save you

Let it go, but hurry now
There’s undertow, and I don’t want to lose you now

Oh my, look at your bright stars fading so
How much can you take?

Honesty is what you need
It sets you free, like someone to save you

Let it go, but hurry now
There’s undertow, and I don’t want to lose you now

I said to save you
Save you
Save you
Someone to save you
What you need is someone to save you

 

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boom.

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October 25, 2009

just some updates:

  • we finished the AP commercial on time. oh yes, we did :) )
  • i didn’t take the USTET. tanungin nyo nalang nanay ko kung bakit. di ko rin kasi alam eh :) )
  • i committed a mortal sin against a friend. i misplaced somethign special that should be returned at all costs. i could promise that i will find it, but i just can’t promise that i will succeed, can i? might as well try. besides, i have an idea where it is. sorry talaga, kung mababasa mo man ‘to. i know how special it is, so trust me when i say i will find it. patulong nalag, kahit moral support :) )
  • bigla akong nagka-”epiphany” sa physics. HAHAHA :) )

the end.

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September 19, 2009

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no. not yet. just a little more time. please.

July 26, 2009

august is coming.

not my favorite month for 2009.

third year’s fears are coming back again.

…with even more unwanted surprises.

if there’s anything that i hate the most when we visit the place, it’s the results. they just always take my breath away. literally.

…and i hate it.

sympathy must stop here. my friends have worried enough. i even had to involve people that i don’t usually talk to, let alone people i actually know.

i’ve already had my fair share of bab news, and they just keep coming. nonstop.

i wonder… how many years will it take from me this time? half of all of it is gone – taking another half?

not yet. please. i want a little more time. i need a little more time. just enough will be fine. i just need a little more time. please.


Keep holdin’ on
There’s nothing you could say
Nohing you could do
There’s no other way when it comes to the truth
So, keep holding on
‘Cause you know we’ll make it through
We’ll make it through

i’m holding on, all right. there really is no other way when it comes to the truth. there really is nothing i can say or do.

not sure if i’ll make it through, though.

august comes, july goes.

another month placed in memory. 30 days of laughs placed in memory. 30 days of hiding the truth carried over to august.

…and august will bring a lot more of hidden truths.

i won’t like august. i won’t.

and no one will see me cry. no one will see me in pain. no one will see me in despair. no one.

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blue screen of death. doom. despair. drama. depression. DAW.

July 19, 2009

who knew i could get so depressed over the blue screen of death.

wala na ngang virus.

di ko naman magamit pc ko ng maayos.

hindi ko na siya maayos. i’m out of plans.

system restore doesn’t work.

i’m stuck in an endless restart cycle.

HELP. T-T

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let the final games begin.

July 5, 2009

guess what?

i’m a fourth year student now! fourth year! last year!

…last year.

nakaraang taon. last year. huling taon. last year.

too much in meaning? medyo nga siguro. pero, di naman talaga maiiwasang sabihin sa sarili eh.

nagkakahiwalay na ang SDS family.

“HINDI KAYA!” malamang, ganyan sagot niyo. oo, nagkikita tayo every lunch at recess. oo, nagkikita tayo sa daan. oo, nag-uusap pa rin tayo.

sigurado kayong buo pa tayo?

kahapon, galing kami sa Mikesell para sa CS; LDS naman yung nasa GK nun. syempre, nauna kaming umuwi (mga 1 hour in advance). at, dito yung “antayin natin yung LDS, baka pwede silang lumabas!”  na outlook. tumagal, bago dumating yung LDS, nagsiuwian na yung iba. syempre, di naman pwedeng maghintay yung iba ng buong magdamag. e ako nga eh, inaantay ko lang nanay ko nun na lumabas ng FBA, tapos uuwi na rin ako.

dumating na yung LDS! yes, bonding!

…not.

iba? kailangang umalis ng maaga. kahit papaano may mga ilang nagstay ng sandali, e may iba rin namang hindi na dumaan sa amin. ultimong sarili naming mga kaklase, nagsarili-sarili na.

di ko lang talaga alam kung anong nasa utak ng SDS ngayon.

o ano, tuwing birthday nalang ba tayo magkakasama? tuwing umaga?

the same faces that said “GUYS! sama-sama pa rin tayo next year ah!” are the same people that simply pass us by without saying a word. some people care, some people don’t.

aaminin ko, pati kami rin naman eh, nagkakaganitong ugali na din. paano ba naman kasim, hiwa-hiwalay yung mga section namin. hindi man lang pinagtabi.

so ano na mangyayari? happy birthday at good morning nalang ba batian natin?

guys, huling taon na. you might want to make this the best one.

what a start for the last year of high school. ut hey, i don’t know what’ll happen for the next months. anything good goes in God’s realm. so, aasahan nating maganda yung mangyayari sa atin. syempre, kelangan gagalaw din tayo. di pwedeng puro si God lang.

participate in the games.

let the final games begin.

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summer end post

June 5, 2009

alright. i haven’t touched this thing for a long time, & i think it’s time to actually do so. let’s start with the basics.

~ my ds is broken.

~ my cellphone got stolen. if you can remember, my cellphone before that got stolen last summer. coincidence? more or less.

~ my ipod got stolen. went with the phone.

~ i attended review classes. all the way to taft, in academic gateway. it’s nice. ^_^

~ i attended seton notes seminars. very, very long seminars. xD

~ oh yeah, i’m also the associate editor of the seton notes now. COOL! ^_^

~ my YFC sector, A2, merged with A1. so yeah, kasama ko na si ianne sa sector.

~ i got a new pc and DSL this summer. FINALLY!

~ i’m just reading naruto manga. no more fanfics for me.

~ i also watch bleach whenever i have the time. i have an awful lot to catch up to.

now, let’s go to the deeper topics.

1. star sections issue

yes, sa dami ba naman ng mga nag-gm at nag-text, dapat alam mo na sa ngayon na wala nang star section. hinati na kami. nagkataon lang na naipon sa tatlong section ang star.

i know, miost of you are quite happy about this. even more (lalo na yung mga kaklase ko dati at ngayon) are sad (as in SAD) because of this. ang dami nang mga malulungkot na post sa internet, yung may mga “i’ll miss you guys” or “sana nagng kaklase ko nalang si…” at “tayo-tayo pa rin magkakasama sa lunch ah” na post.

technically, yes, it is sad. total, sino ba naman di maninibago kapag ilang taon na kayong magkakasama tapos ngayon pa kayo naghiwa-hiwalay sa huling taon nyo sa high school. personally, yun din naman nasa isip ko eh. who would like that.

but then again, this is a very good time to find new friends, and relate to them. saka at least, pantay-pantay na ang labanan sa mga competition sa school. this can have bad effects, this can have good effects as well. it’s a 50-50 situation.

but hey, i really will miss thosenoisy class moments. wala nang maingay na star T-T yun pa naman ang nagbibigay-buhay sa dapat na boring na section. mukhang naging mas boring pa dahil hinati kami sa tatlo.

but hey, we wouldn’t know if it’s good or bad until we actually get to school, don’t we? :) )

2. seton notes

yes, seton notes. yung pinangtatakip nyo sa wall kapag may play. JOKE. :) )

mukhang kami ang magbabangon sa medyo “natumba” na seton notes last year. actually, isali na rin natin ang taon bago yun. medyo tagilid lang talaga ang mga naghahandle sa amin. e ngayon naman, mukhang maayos ang management, and ui think we’re in good hands, so this might actually be a good year for us.

KAKAYANIN ‘TO. KAKAYANIN. :) )

3. my own problems

yes, i have my own problems. internal, you might say. nanggugulo na sa utak ko eh. i need to straighten things up.

for one, my parents keep pushing me to actually try pursuing ladies. oo naman, i would do that someday, i have crushes and interests too. pero parang wala pa ako sa tamang lugar eh. i know that sopmething’s just not ready in me. maybe my maturit, or my actually capacity to love (per se) a person, or something. basta, di pa talaga ako handa. or maybe it’s really just my size. oh, what the heck. moving on.

second.

And every time I look, I thought you were there,
But it was just my imagination
I don’t see it anymore cause I see through you now

let’s take that as a guide. if you know that i like someone, good. if you don’t, then just read. or something.

i think i should change now. i don’t think it’s not right to look at the girl from a distance while boys from all levels (seriously, almost all levels) are all trying hard to get her to like them. i don’t know if i should just stop altogether or just continue, or even join those guys in their commotion. it’s hard to think like this. total, di naman kami nag-uusap ngayon. ultimong multiply, di na rin ako nagcocomment sa kanya. same goes for her. maybe i should go move on. just maybe. di pa ako sigurado eh. i think i already have someone else in mind, but she’s already taken, so there’s no point.

maybe i really just don’t see it anymore.

or maybe i should continue.

Maybe you could not believe it

That my love for you is blind

But I couldn’t make you see it

Couldn’t make you see it

That I loved you more than you’ll ever know

When part of me died when I let you go

gahd, this is hard x__x

signout.

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summer getaways

April 1, 2009

what do i do/what will i do this summer?

  • syempre, hindi na aalis ang DS. but what games exactly?
  • suikoden tierkreis. one of the best i’ve ever played.
  • trackmania ds. nakakatuwang magdrive ng nagtutumbling na F1 xD
  • pokémon platinum. need i say more? ;)
  • valkyrie profile: covenant ot the plume. any square enix game is a good game.
  • boogie. elite beat agents, the other way around xD
  • lunar knights. paminsan-minsan.
  • …and other games i might have not mentioned.
  • i WANT to learn to play basketball. seriously, i need an outside game life T-T
  • i WANT to continue playing basic soccer. kawawa naman ako, nakalublob lang sa bahay buong araw.
  • nakadami na ako sa swimming trips, at gusto ko pang dumami, para  masaya.
  • dadalasan ko na din yung paglabas ko ng bahay para mangapitbahay. i have a close circle of friends in my neighborhood, you know. xD
  • tatapusin ko na ang legend of danot 3. full-scale action!
  • i plan to stick to my family as frequent as possible. sus naman, halos isang taon akong dumistansya sa kanila para sa school. i think 2 months wouldn’t hurt.
  • i plan to go to any outside activity i’m invited to this summer. mapa-birthday, meeting sa YFC, kahit simpleng labas lang sa ATC paras gumala. i want to enjoy my last months of teenage freedom.
  • i don’t know how, but i need to slim down. SOMEHOW. T-T
  • i need to save. again, SOMEHOW. T-T
  • i’ll refrain from using my cellphone for textmate-like intentions. exception nalang kung may lakad ako, at kelangan talagang magtanong-tanong.
  • i want to be a good boy this summer. walang pasaway. hahaha xD
  • i will also refrain from using the pc the whole day. kaya nga sa gabi lang ako online, nasanay na sa school days eh xD
  • i will refrain from eating. I THINK. xDxD
  • i will try my best to steer my mind away from school & school-inclined stuff. c’mon, it’s summer!
  • i will try my best not to think about a certain someone. masisira ata utak ko sa kakaisip sa babaeng yun pag tinuloy ko ‘to. xDxD
  • i will update my accounts. multiply, wordpress, friendster, plurk, kahit imeem at facebook. ang dami eh. xDxD
  • i will watch american idol. who knows what comes next.
  • i will watch tv more often. i’m missing out on all the new shows!
  • i will find new guitarists to listen to. paulit ulit nalang jason mraz/john mayer/james morrison/stephen speaks dito xDxD

AYAN!

this should get me busy this summer. xD